sept 30

in a classroom

grown-ups on tiny chairs

raising hands to answer

i kissed a boy

but he turned into a man

sept. 23

In Kyoto

eating soba with a fat asian guy,

one american talks to me.

he is with a japanese woman who looks older than me.

she says she will take me to a club in Kyoto.

it's on the 5th floor

lots of stairs...

she is actually a DJ.

and the club is more like a concert hall

that i used to have piano concerts in...

she says i will get hungry

so i must buy some food...

there is Safeway in the club

i look for a fruit cup.

strawberries are so red

red like red ink...

Sept 19

I'm probably 12 or 13 years old,

swimming in the ocean with Chiaki-chan.

(I hated her. She was a snob. )

I'm drowning...

Chiaki-chan won't help me out.

Then suddenly in a PE class

doing a 200m race with chiaki-chan.

I beat her.

She starts crying.

Utada appears...(???)

Sept. 17

New Year's day in Japan,

I go to KFC and buy a family bucket with poutine.

(I swear I've had KFC only like 4 times in my entire life)

My family's having some nice traditional jp food at the table,

but I eat the whole bucket of fried chicken.

I go to the washroom and throw up.

Somehow my mom is in early 30s.

She's wearing a pink kimono, looking pretty.

Sept. 13

at my home in Nagasaki,

in my old bed,

sort of making out with...,

he gives me a ring,

he tells me all sorts of sweet things,

i hear my father's car,

he has to hide,

he won't hide,

he says he will be gone forever

he wants to go far,

i cry,

he gets frustrated.